Had Chemo today

Besides me yelling and carrying on about the needle going in, it was ok, didnt feel a thing otherwise, well the stuff is a bit cold but nothing major

they decided i needed a chill pill (cant remember proper name for it) so i chilled well lol, then when leaving i said to Mum that i had cement boots on a walked like i did lol

i feel ok, i am completely stoned still from this chill pill, and wanted to go driving to find kangeroos, then i figured i couldn't really drive having drugs, so i thought i could ride eldest kids pushbike instead, this chill pill works that for sure

anyhow went to bed but cant sleep, must be steroids maybe, and my back is aching badly and i feel a touch sick now, not much, just a touch queasy really, so might try and sleep again

i am so hoping tomorrow i wake up ok, feeling a little crap i can handle but hoping not to wake up sick

oh re the trial they randomised me and i didnt get the drug, i had decided to leave it up to fate so that was ok, and means that after chemo and radio i am done with it all

My nan it seems has breast cancer now, its not confirmed as yet but the report indicated it was cancer, she said to me that the lump will be going with her, and i dont blame her, she is 91 and happy to just leave it be, if it does turn out to be cancer then it would give me a direct family link to it now as well, wish i could of got it at her age rather than mine though, well presuming she has it i would hope neither of us got it at all, but i gather you get my point there

till next time